I am what I am and I can't change...
I promise myself but who am I to judge, I can't change what I have had there for years.
So if I make the same mistake, the big one and hurt myself again, there will be a time when I learn. I just don't know when that time will come and how bad things need to get before I make that change.
Do I need an irreversable hurt or has that already happened. Strength does not measure self worth though I wish it did.
The thing with hurting the brain through embarrassment or courage or anger you can always rememeber them.
Hurting the heart is a different matter, you can't remember it.
Not when the desire for something more begins to conquer it.